CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN.... WARNING ... WORDS FROM MY HEART

I did not realize or expect the Holidays to be so hard. As I was out buying gifts for everyone... reality set in...I couldn't buy for everyone...some would be celebrating Christmas in Heaven this year and for one special little Angel his 1st Christmas will be in Heaven...WOW and what a Christmas he will have being with the One who was born on Christmas day. The One Christmas is all about....Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Brody will get to go to the real Birthday party....how awesome would that be? Well......even though I know he will have the perfect Christmas with Jesus......my selfishness would still rather him be here with us......and I can't apologize for the way I feel.....life is just not fair....and it hurts!!! I do what I can for him here on this earth, I mean making sure he has pretty flowers, and his wind chimes are not all twisted in the tree branches....I can't even drive by the cemetery without stopping even if it is just for a few short minutes....I just have to make sure everything is okay ......this is the only thing I get to do for him..... even though I do not understand I DO trust God will bring us through...we will never be the same .......but God will.



God can take your trouble and change it into treasure. Your sorrow can become joy-not just a momentary smile but a deep, new joy. It will be a bubbling experience of new hope that puts a brightness and a song in your heart.

In the midst of the darkness you will learn lessons you might never have learned in the day. We all have seen dreams turn to ashes- ugly things, hopeless experiences- but beauty for ashes is God's exchange. Offer yourself to God and ask for a spirit of praise so your whole being will be restored.

-Barbara Johnson-